October

Double blog post today. Sorry its pretty emo though. October; I love it and I hate it. More spacificly September and October together. The weather is chaotic, but the nice days are really nice, not too hot not too cold. The leaves are changing and beautiful. But it inevitably reminds me of high school, and marching band. High school was a very life changing time for me. My first kiss was in October. I know it sounds stupid, I was just a kid and all that but its always going to be a time in my life that I will vividly remember. It was bittersweet. I loved band, most of my friends were in the band, and my girlfriend at the time was too. That was wonderfull, except when we were having some, shal we say, rough times. Then things couldn't have been worse. The smell of October, brings back all these memorys of sitting on the hill not watching the football game on Friday nights (or was it Saturday?). Or sitting on the side of the hill completely consumed w/ depression and trying desperately not to show it. All of these are memories that have not faded to me, my memory is such that past events are always crystal clear; like a high def movie playing in my head. If any of you from that time in my life are reading this, please know this is not aimed at you. I love you all, and wouldn't change that time for anyhing. (well there is one thing I would like to have changed, but that is a something that will never be shared)

So, October. I will always love you and I will always hate you.