I know I shouldn’t, and I don’t know why I do. But, have you ever had that one thing in your past that you keep going back to, maybe even a whole chapter in your life? Well I do. Most of the time I don’t think about it, most of the time its just there in the back of my mind; but every once in awhile it jumps out and the feelings are as fresh as if it happened yesterday.
Forgive me for being vague, but this is after all the interwebz and I don’t want to hurt any parties involved but those who know me, I’m sure can guess. Anyway, what does one do when this happens? Especially for one such as me who has such a vivid imagination and 100% memory recall for things that happened in the distant past (just don’t ask me what happened yesterday, lol). I keep telling myself that life is good right now, I have everything a person could hope for in life…so why can’t I forget. Why can’t I let things go that happened so long ago?
Mrs. Kimpak may not understand what is going on, but I know she knows that there is something wrong when I get into one of these moods. That makes me feel even worse sometimes. I know she is always there for me though, even when I’m acting like an idiot.
When you ask the question, “If you could change something that happened in your past, would you do it”? Most people say no, they’d leave it exactly the same. I think differently, I think there are some things in my past I would certainly change if I knew then what I know now. It may change how I am today, but it might be for the better. But since time travel isn’t available to the general public yet, it looks like I’ll have to make do with who I am currently.
Well, I apologize for this being mostly an emo whine blog, but its been somewhat thereputic.
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