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So, I need a semi obscure outlet and this is it. Facebook has gotten too mainstream so I can't really let on there, waaay to many people would be upset. Anyway, I've been depressed as all hell. No idea why. There's no reason that I know of, I haven't changed anything. There's just this...demon that continues to gnaw at me...the same one from my youth. I've gotten quite good at hiding everything, keeping it all hidden inside. Mrs. Kimpak wouldn't understand, she hasn't in the past so I can't really tell her, plus she's been going though a lot herself. So, I have to be strong for her. Sometimes it seems I have to be strong for everybody. I don't want to burdon anyone with my stupid random depression. I'm not particularly suisidal or anything, but just unhappy...so I just go on.


I suppose everybody is like this from time to time. That doesn't really help me though, no matter how much I tell myself. I can see the demon manifest itself in different ways. I can't watch a movie, or a tv show that represents certain subject matter, I have to turn it off or it tears me apart. Hell, that even happened during a commercial....a friggen commercial! Not good.

Writing has always helped a little bit, so this is what that is. Just some random free writing. Not sure why I'm putting it on my actual blog, other than it somehow seems more real this way. To pretend someone randomly read it and gives a crap, even for just a moment.